let me hide away my deepest soul so that you can't see it, let me hide away the obvious things wrap it all in a cloak of darkness. why should i be seen and why do i not want to be seen. what is it about me that reacts to being seen. i wear my heart on my sleeve but i am not forthcoming when i talk face to face. the blog is a replacement. it's just like the catholic confessional- it's an escape. for one: God will forgive you if you ask him and for two: if you really want that healing you have to tell someone who you really care about. the catholic priest in the confessional is a replacemant, they have no face and they have no meaning. it takes no real courage to tell the confessional your secrets and a blog is the same. it is so easy because you are just typing and this is why typing helps me think. because the things that i won't even say in my mind, i will type. and so the blog entry that reveals so much is not a public apology, but it is a confessional. so father google, father no one, i have sinned. i have wasted life. my life. my time is precious and I have been wasting it. forgive me. but the void forgives no one and so i must talk to the real God not the god of the keyboard. the keyboard only understands and can translate a limited emotion, but the true God understands me fully and heals me fully. the keyboard is no substitute for the mouth, but I am happy that it helps me think, helps me come to terms with my world and my life. Now it's time to open my mouth though.
fool sitting here typing
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Tuesday, 12 December 2006
Friday, 8 December 2006
numero uno
post number one
so pretty much i was a fervent believer in having just an msn space because mine got to be pretty cool and i've got a crapload of awesome and life-changing expositions posted on it. also i didn't want to split my loyalties, but i've finally decided to make the switch because after checking out Thomas' blog it just seemed like a much better format; much more user friendly and way faster than msn and also it works with my gmail. (I'll admit I have officially given up on anything to do with windows and now that msn is completely converted to windows live crap i hope to quit it sometime soon, except there needs to be another messenger). so why am i still blogging anyways... simply put i blog because it helps me think. Of course there's the obligatory "keep in touch with your friends" stuff too, but blogging for me is about a lot more than. when I put my fingers to the keys there is a deep connection and sometimes I will simply type and my mind will flow out exposed on the keyboard and onto the screen. of course I only rarely blog one of those typing moments, but they're cool anyways and it partially explains why I can't keep my fingers off of the keys. so pretty much the goal of this blog is to type whatever the hell I want and hope somebody reads it and hope somebody likes it, but even if you don't like it or don't read it that will still be cool because i'll still be typing most excellent stuff and thinking through awesomeness things and this blank page will soon be filled with the grooviness that is words.
signed: the fool sitting here typing
so pretty much i was a fervent believer in having just an msn space because mine got to be pretty cool and i've got a crapload of awesome and life-changing expositions posted on it. also i didn't want to split my loyalties, but i've finally decided to make the switch because after checking out Thomas' blog it just seemed like a much better format; much more user friendly and way faster than msn and also it works with my gmail. (I'll admit I have officially given up on anything to do with windows and now that msn is completely converted to windows live crap i hope to quit it sometime soon, except there needs to be another messenger). so why am i still blogging anyways... simply put i blog because it helps me think. Of course there's the obligatory "keep in touch with your friends" stuff too, but blogging for me is about a lot more than. when I put my fingers to the keys there is a deep connection and sometimes I will simply type and my mind will flow out exposed on the keyboard and onto the screen. of course I only rarely blog one of those typing moments, but they're cool anyways and it partially explains why I can't keep my fingers off of the keys. so pretty much the goal of this blog is to type whatever the hell I want and hope somebody reads it and hope somebody likes it, but even if you don't like it or don't read it that will still be cool because i'll still be typing most excellent stuff and thinking through awesomeness things and this blank page will soon be filled with the grooviness that is words.
signed: the fool sitting here typing
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